thank you for breathing.

❝ Oh, really ?

( posted on Sunday, December 30, 2012 @ 11:05 pm )

Your post on the 27th, I read it.
I was touched.
Touched that my little sister wants to try to make our r/s better.
I cried.
Cried because I do remember those little memories of ours.
When you're 7, you always cried in school,
& I had to go look after you when your teacher came to look for me.

I remembered we were crying together in our room,
when mummy laughed at us, saying we're silly girls,
sleep tgt, cry tgt.

& remember the barbies tt was thrown down to the bin?
We cried and ask mummy to let us take it back frm the bin?

& remember that time I took our cousin's blue star and gave to you,
because you lost yours ,& got caned by ah ma?
I never regretted that, because that's when I know I still love my little sister.

But what happened to us? now ?

Was it because I moved out of our room,
that we have lesser time for each other,
that we drifted apart?

We have more quarrels that laughter together.
We both never made the effort to mend our r/s.
Instead, it gets worse.

I was never the role model for you.
Be it studies or anything else, never.
I never knew how to take care of you.
& sometimes I am really how people can tell me that
they go watch movie with their siblings,
play, have dinner tgt.
Some even have sibilings outings.
But us?
One day no quarrel, it's good enough.

Wei, if you're willing to, let's put in effort together, shall we ?
I don't know if you'll ever see this post,
cause I doubt you have my blog link.

But I just wanna let you know,
I love you, no lesser that anyone I know in this world.
We both know we've never expressed ourselves well towards each other,
at all.
So maybe we can start now?

Cause we lived together for 17 years.
We're from same parents, same family, same blood line.

I don't know how you'll feel when you read this,
you might feel that I'm crying crocs tears.
But,
I do hope our r/s will change for the better.
Cause I missed how things were, before.

你是我的妹妹，一辈子都是。
老爸整天说，做姐妹，一辈子只有一次。
如果有下辈子，我还有和你做姐妹。