thank you for breathing.

❝ How Have You Been ?Ah ma ...

( posted on Sunday, March 28, 2010 @ 9:46 pm )

Was watching the Thong Chia charity repeat today ,
heard this song .
tt night didnt hear this cause went to bathed .
i read the lyrics ,they were wonderful .

Don't feel lik elaborating much ,
cause i dun wanna cry =] .

Byes .

7 Months & 13 Days ,
How have you been ?

I miss you alot ='[ .

❝ Sometimes ,Living in a world without feelings is better .

( posted on Saturday, March 27, 2010 @ 9:08 pm )

Damn tired now ,
why ?
cause im awake for 14 hrs today ,
why ?

morning woke up at 7 ,
den met isabel at bus stop ,
tak bus go Bishan HQ .
walk inside ,see nobody .
then Jing Fang come in tell us ,
'u all nv recieve the email ?the camp is changed to 2 day workshop .'
the both of us went '0.0 HUH ?!!?'
then she print out the email giv us see ,
strt at 1.45 .
den i went -.- **********
so the two of us went back home ,
den met at mall at 12 ,lunched ,went back HQ .
had the workshop ,quite useful i would sae ,
learnt quite a few things today ,
looking forward to the nxt one on 24th ,apr .
den went mall with bel ,
dinner ,pool ,walked home frm mall ,
bathed & here i am .

suddenly no mood ,
ahhh .

Byes .

Oh ,Thanks Isabel xD

When will it be my turn ?

Never ,why ?
cause she's younger ,
so i must always give in to her ,
even though we're the same age .
You always think of her feelings ,
then how about me ?
i'm a human too ,SISTER .

Fuck .

❝ Strange Weather

( posted on Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 1:05 pm )

morning rain until lik xiao ,
now the sun shine lik xiao -.- .
sigh ,the Earth's changing -.- !

all of a sudden ,i gt alot of Guides junior de blog link .
LOL ,y ?

cause jus nw i go see Orchid blog ,change blogskin .
den link here link thr ,tag hera tag the ,
suddenly alot le ,LOL .

Random -.- .

Ltr gng back HS return guitar ,
i'll miss ah bian ='[ ...

ok ,wdeva .
Byes ~!

I sense a Thunderstorm coming .

❝ Changes

( posted on Monday, March 22, 2010 @ 10:02 am )

Campfire night photos

sigh ,family prob -.- .
one of my cousins is turning lian ,
zzzzzzz .
main reason ?
loss of communication between her and her parents .
and also ,her mum (my aunt-in-law) is biased towards her elder bro .
i went to read her blog ,
she said that she hates her life ,
blamin my uncle for leavin the family .
it feels heartaching to see a sec2 kid posting such things .
she's onli sec 2 ,& her mum can leave her at
home alone & bring her bro to bintan .
the kind of frens she make ,i guess i dont need to sae ,
its obvious .

the difference i can see frm her 3 yrs ago n nw ,
its alot .
frm a darling ,lovable ,cheerful girl ,
to someone whom i dont tink i knw her anymore .
who to blame ?
her ?her mum ?her dad ?or blame fate ?

It's just not right .

❝

( posted on Saturday, March 20, 2010 @ 8:35 pm )

I'll see how long you can hang on this time .

❝ POP' 10

( posted on @ 11:16 am )

18th.Mar

morning went end with Dar ,Amanda n Dexter .
at first it was super hot ,cos of morning sun .
then we saw dark clouds approaching ,
didnt reali care .
sat thr n bullshit alot .
i laughed alot ,wonder y tt morning so high ,LOL .
den we felt some water falling dwn ,
ran to the bus stop ,went mall ,pooled .
went for lunch ,laughed until lik dunno what again -.- .

went skul ,the girls did their stuff .
it was still raninig ,so the fire structure cnt b done .
around 5.30 den we did the structure -.- .
around 6+ ,one of the UH frm yishun town ,
i tink her name is Fang Ning ,
helped us with the fire thingy .
Thanks alot !xD

sadly ,the fire wasnt a sucess .
yes , the fire ball did went in ,nicely .
bt cause it's been raining for days ,
the fire woods are nt dry ,
then after we rearranged the structure ,
we forgot to pour kerosene ,
the fire went out soon after .
Wan Lin & Fang Ning saved it .
thank god .
then campfire ended ,packed up ,
lights out at 11.30

19th .Mar

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEANNZ MUMMY ~!!!!!!

morning woke up at 6.30 ,
saw my phone gt msg ,
was wondering hu so early send mi msg .
den saw was ms Toh ,tellin mi breakast is to b done by 7.15 .
i jumped up ,LOL ~!
gt the girls to wake up ,breakfast ,den cleared gateway
& fire pit ,changed to full u .
had games ,bt some problems happened ,stopped halfway .
then POP ,as usual ,thr were changes in patrols .
Orchids cried ,cos all the sec2s were seperated .
i see them cry ,i cry -.- .(thanks ar )
ok ,wdeva .

den had buffet lunch .
went guides rm ,
Dar played BB with ghim ,
den played truth or dare with ghim ,amanda n isabel .
It was HILARIOUS ~!!!!!xDDD
Hor Amanda ???xDDDDDDDDDDDD
homed ,bathed ,slept .

20th. Mar
woke up at 6.30+++ am T.T ,
slept for 12 hrs ,LOL ~!
raining whole day today xc .

ok ,that's all .

Byes ~!

After this campfire ,i learned one thing .
Never ever think that you're the best in something ,
why ?
cause there's always someone better out there ,
just that you have not met them .

Totally disappointed ,by myself .

❝ Imy :(

( posted on Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 9:08 pm )

Super Xian at home x.x .
Bt at least today gt rain ,so at least nt very warm .
Super Xian luhhhhhhhh ~

tml gng for guides in the morning ,
so tonight hav to sleep early again -.-
xiannnnnnnnnnnnn
hopefully everything goes well ,
cos campfire's on the 18th T.T

ok ,go watch show liaooo .
Byes ~!

I miss my boy :ccc

❝ Millenia Walk Performance

( posted on Saturday, March 13, 2010 @ 10:45 pm )

JUMP ~!!!

Ellos ppl ~!

13th.Mar

morning woke up at 6 am (SHAG !)
den went skul at around 7 ,
help the girls to make up for their dance performance .
they seem quite high ,LOL .
den followed them to HQ ,
gt this very funny part .

cause the PA system gt prob ,
so they wan every skul to do their own skul cheer .
i was playing with my Itouch ,
then the girls told mi to lead H-O-U-G-A-N-G cheer ,
so i did luh .
den end le ,the other skuls did their's ,
i cont play .
then the emcee said ,'can hougang sec lead everyone to a song ?'
i immediately looked up and said 'har ?'
in the end we sung silvery moon ,
sad luh ,felly nt thr xc .
the girls did their performance before mi n isabel went off ,
yup ,they did very well xD .
though they didnt win ,bt im sure they enjoyed it xD .
well done girls ~!

after went brunch with isabel & dear at mall mac ,
den went pool @ plaza until 1 .
went home ,changed ,
went meet amanda (who is late for 20 mins ) & wan er @ serangoon mrt
den go boon keng meet pei shun (who is oso late) .
after tt trained dwn to city hall ,walk to millenia walk .
met joel n lexus ,walked to the performance thr .
practise practise practise ,den jiu on stage liao .
finish ,go out took many many many photos xD .
i went totally crazy ,haha xDDD .
den dinner with them @ pepper lunch .
laugh until lik dunno wd ,
thanks to pei shun n her stupid jokes .
LOL ~! .
trained home ,bathed ,slept .

Yup ,ytd was fun .
bt gt consequence de .

Cough -.- .
too much laughing ytd ,
LOL .
hopefully its jus temporary cough ,
cos if i get sick nw ,i dunno hw on earth
am i gng to help guides in the campfire x.x .

I LOVE MY CCAS !♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Ok ,Byes ~!

❝ TP -Culinary & Catering Course Student

( posted on Friday, March 12, 2010 @ 8:34 pm )

Wheeeeeeee !!!!
My TP appeal is sucessful !!!
Muahahahahaha ~!!!!!!!!
So means nw I'm a TP culinary and catering course student
YAY !!!!xD

Today went back guides ,interviewed the sec threes for their posts
some of their answers were quite unexpected .
Bt im nt gng to saw much here ,let's wait for the result to b out on the 19th xD .

Tml gng to wake up early at 6-.-
cos the sec twos r having dance competition ,
so I nid go help them do make up .
So hopefully they'll do their best xD .

Off to FB ,
byes ~!!!!

❝ Itouch !!!

( posted on @ 11:37 am )

hellos !!currently posting using my itouch.
Haha .ytd went it show to buy it .
Love it .xD
cos this means I can go online in the middle of the night too xD .
Ok ,nid to prepare go guides liaoo xD ,
ttyl !!!xD

❝ Covering up the injure-d .

( posted on Monday, March 08, 2010 @ 11:13 am )

was blog hopping ,den i strted to read other ppl's blog archive .
read a few ,den went back to read mine .
found out that first time bloggers always
blog almost about the same way ,
using the same type of eng n bloggin style .
den slowly when they get the hang of it ,
they strt to hav their own way .

oh well ,nth much to post today .
ltr gng out lunch ,den tml gt guitar (i tink) .
nid confirm again .
Byes .

Boy ,what happened to you ?
if this is your way of getting matured ,
then i'd rather you never grow up .
the you i first know wasn't like this .
you're a cheerful boy ,
a boy that cares for how others feel ,
a boy that knows how to make people smile at the count of 3 ,
a boy that shares some of his thoughts with me when he's feeling down ,
a boy that still treats me as his close friend .
but what happened ?

you've changed ,
to someone that heck care about how others feel ,
someone that doesn't even bother to tell me what happened ,
someone whom i feel that is trying to get rid of me .

the words you said last night ,
it did hurt me ,till deep inside ,
you said the word hate is a strong word ,you treat it seriously .
so you mean that you do hate me ?
just because of what i've done ?

I Need Answers .

❝ Sticky !

( posted on Sunday, March 07, 2010 @ 11:56 am )

Mi ,Jasmine ,Amanda xD .

Guide's shop !

Finally gt my sticky sweet frm Karen MAW ,
haha xD .
it's very very very nice xD .
Thanks alot maw !xD

Friday guides meeting ,
taught the sec1s basic stationary footdrill ,
realised that my tolerance lvl has gone up ,
or at least when im infront of the girls .
LOL ~!
hopefully will cont to grow .

Ytd went HQ at 9 ,
gt PNA briefing ,quite bored luh ,
cause its all theory stuff .

Imma hyper active kid xD .

then went J8 ,
Ms Toh treated us lunch .
Heeheehee xP .
den walked around with isabel ,
Homed .

Hate the weather ,
cause its super duper hot !-.- .
y cnt it rain xia ?-.- .

That's all ,
Byes ~!

❝ ♥ A New Chapter

( posted on Thursday, March 04, 2010 @ 4:13 pm )

I super hate the weather -.- .
cause its damn fcuking hot !!!!!!T.T

stayed at home whole day today ,
damn xian -.- .
jus nw my ex colleague called mi ,
tellin mi tt she resigned too .
im lik ,LOL ,expected .
why ?cause the upstair one very slack .
ah ,dun wan to talk bout it .
i guess sooner or ltr ,
the topman part time staffs are all gona change again .
AHA ~ .

i guess that's all ,
tml gng back guides again .
YAHOOOOOOO ~!

Byes ~

♥ A New Chapter ;040310

❝ Beginning To See Hope ....Hopefully .

( posted on Wednesday, March 03, 2010 @ 12:23 pm )

Gng to submit my poly stuff in an hrs times ,
lik finally ,ya -.- .

went back guitar ytd ,
had lunch with amanda n joel ,
then met Mr Ong ,
missed him =] .
he asked mi to perform for 13th's performance ,
so i agreed .
practiced Alexander's with Joel ,
i can onli sae one word ,

Memories =] .

i srsly miised the feel of playin Karen MAW's guitar ,
& oso the feel of swinging with the music .
LOVE IT !<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<3

play until 6+ ,
went home ,bathed ,dinner-ed ....

yup ,that's all xD .
Byes ~!

See you tomorrow =]

❝ When Nothing Goes Right .

( posted on Monday, March 01, 2010 @ 9:18 am )

Back frm Guides camp xD .

26th.Feb
went TP for course interview ,
was super nervous X.X .
guan liang accompanied mi thr ,
Thanks =] .
was almost late ,luckily was not the last one .
cause gt one girl 2.30+ den come in
when the interview was 2 pm 0.0 .
gd luck to her ,
the qns they asked was expected ,
so was somehw prepared xD .
after tt went home ,changed n went HS .
kena in rain ,again -.- .
went to find the girls ,
they do their things blah blah blah ....
dun feel lik describing the things they do .
LOL ,
will tell u people a joke though ~!
all contributed by Peh Sze Yun xD .

first night when we eat dinner ,
the guard uncle gav us oranges ,
so sze yun took one an ate .
she peel peel peel halfway ,
he thumb poked through the orange skin ,
so meaning her thumb was in the middle of the orange .
instead of taking it out ,she thumbs up & show mi n isabel .
the two of us laugh until lik dunno wd .
HAHAHAHA ~!!!!

after dinner had night footdrill ,
i tink the girls enjoyed it ?
hopefully ,cause it was very cooling tt night ,
so yup xD .
after tt had supper ,then lightout for the young ones ,
the rest of us had COH ,
then i dropped ,LOL ~!
FYI ::it was around 1-2 am tt ~~Night~~ day ,
@ we had to wake up at 6/6.30AM -.- .

27th .Feb
woke up at around 6.30+++ ,
heng ,im nt the onli one tt woke up late xPP .
dragged myself to wash up ,then went canteen to see them make breakfast .
they had breakfast ,the campcomms n chers had nth to eat T.T .
so ms chia went pnt to buy fried bee hoon for us ,
Thanks xD .
then enrolment practises ,strike tents ,
enrolment clauses ,etc etc ............

then lunch time ,so another joke contributed by Sze Yun .

the sec1s made fruit salads & the camp comms
were given some ,so we ate .
Sze Yun was the last one to clear the plates ,
then she asked if the cherry tomatoes were nice .
Wan Lin was sitiing beside her shaking her head ,
FYI ::wan lin cldnt talk ,why ?
cause she sore throat until she no voice ,
(AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ,poor thing X.X ) .
Sze Yun didnt see ,so happily throw the
tomato into her mouth .
the first few sec was peaceful ,
after tt ,mi n isabel laugh until lik hell again .
cause the face Sze Yun gav was damn damn funny xDDDD
and cnt b mimic-ed .
AHAHA ~!

after lunch had singalong session ,
my fav xDDD .
then enrolment ceremony ,
area cleaning ,break camp .
had dinner with wan lin ,sze yun n isabel .
Wan lin sore throat still eat fries -.- .
找死 -.- .
then home-d ,bathed ,slept .....

nth much to sae bout ytd xD .

Byes .

It's not that I don't want to ,
it's because I have a lot of worries .