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❝ Everything Ends With A Fullstop .
( posted on Thursday, April 30, 2009 @ 9:06 pm )
i got 25/50 for my tuition mock maths test -.- .cause its all bout bearings and vectors -.- . Monday The day everyone's waiting for , went skul at bout 6.20+++ , ate breakfast with wan er ,wenjie n rachael . andrina ,huisi n jes came later . went guitar rm , helped the ppl to make-up etc etc . had sometime for laast practise , den went up bus at 10.30+ ... wasnt in a gd mood through out the bus trip , becos i scare history wil repeat itself ... reached there ,went tuning rm , last practise ,went backstage . my heart went thumping like dunno wd . though this is my 3rd one ... went in ,played ,came out . solo part was great , nt much mistakes . went out ,many were saying confirm get gold , bt mi n wan er didnt dare to smile much . cos tt was wd happened ... some said they played a few wrong notes , and mr ong told us some mistakes , so i estimated a silver . went back skul ,camwhore all the way xDD . so there will be a major photo blast xDDD . went dinner lunch with peps n mr ong , went tuition ,waited for the nxt day to come ... Tuesday & this day came , skul was as usual , jus tt ppl keeps asking for the results . in skul until 4++ , mrs cheng came in ,we all listened to her saying the intro b4 results . silver was wd i thot we'll get , by the way she saes things . in the end ,its a bronze . it was heartbreaking . i guess i was the 1st to breakdwn again -.- . Mr Ong talked ,den told us to go fa xie . so i went toilet . Thanks Amanda =] wan er came to pull mi back to settle the video for Mr Ong , den halfway he wanted to talk to us ,so went back guitar rm . he talked ,n for the 1st time ,we saw him crying . of course ,we cried too . bt he cried cos he saw us crying , so its lik a cycle -.- . den went Imac to settle the video , everyone tt was ther watched , Mr Ong seems touched =] . den went dinner with amanda ,wan er ,ngee song ,joel ,xinyi & Mr Ong . it was fun ! mi n amanda laughed none stop , cause Ngee Song was ther ... HAHA ! Mr Ong says he'll miss my laughter when i graduate , i told him to look for amanda xDDD den he drove all of us home , bathed ,cried b4 sleep . Wednesday don't wanna talk about it .... Thursday finally ,in a better mood , but was destroyed soon . Eng paper 2 , ok la . after skul suppose to hav lunch with some ppl , in the end kena ps-ed , THANKS AR . dear sent mi home ,ate ,went tuition ,homed & here i am . i knw he wont see this ,but still . Mr Ong ,i hope you'll stop blaming youself for what we've got . it's not your fault . we all worked for it ,it's the judges that don't appreciate us . they dont know our style of music . so ,too bad for them =] . please please please sont leave the family . cause we alrdy lost our mother , we cnt lose our father too . we'll be poor orphans ='[ Byes .     Mama Tan came back !!!!!    Banana family !    Emo kids ... stupid day -.-                          This is wd always happens after SYF          she's desperate ...
❝ It's Tomorrow
( posted on Sunday, April 26, 2009 @ 8:41 pm )
yes ,it is tomorrow ...crying last nite doesnt help in my sleeping time -.- . i woke up at 8.19 today -.- . damn it . den ate breakfast ,wait for daddy to wake up , went sengkang ther to pray . den went AMK ,lunch-ed @ fish & co ,went tuition ,home-d . comm-ed the whole day ,bt didnt touch on my F&N -.- . den watched X-men , jean gray looks abit lik Alice , esp with tt hairstyle . ended the show & here i am ! beta go sleep nw , i dun wanna hav eye bags tml +.+ . Byes ! All the Best HS Guitarists !!! WE CAN DO IT !xD
❝ 心痛
( posted on Saturday, April 25, 2009 @ 9:19 pm )
19th April 2007 ...im sure all sec4s ,5s and alumnis guitarist remember this date . the day we fell hard ,from the sky to hell , the day we cried our hearts out , the day we finally felt that the judges were not fair to us . the day life seems unfair , the day we felt that process is more important than results . the day we felt that our hearts are linked together , the day we felt sorry ,for mr ong ,mrs cheng n mdm tan . the day we all said sorry ,to all of them .... why did i think of this ??? i was looking through guitar blog , & i sae this particular post that grabbed my attention ... --- Sunday, May 13, 2007 After Syf 2007... " Cher said she wanted to cry when we played th last part of I write th songs. Yea, afterall, as we finish performing our two songs, syf will be officially over. Over. You knw, you'll miss th times how we kept practise & practising those two songs. Just for Syf. If we've gotten gold, perhaps we won't have thght abt th Process. Yea, th process was what that matters. More than th result, definitely (: Remember th saturday guitar practises? How we rocked our sch canteen with sway (remix) & other songs? We shared ghost stories & spent lotsa great times tghter, laughing Whenever we didn't play well for our 2 songs, we'll get so demoralised. I remember how th chords for I write th songs affected chantel's mood for a period of time. One week of guitar lessons during th March hols wasn't boring at all, to us, we were having fun :D Th guitar pple, all of them, rock so much. I'm so glad I didn't give up on guitar. I'm so delighted that cher & I stayed. It's sucha blessing, to be able to find these pple in Hs Guitar Ensemble. Many of us prayed to God, hoping that we'll do well, we'll get Gold. 'Hougang Seconday School, Siver'. We fell, hard. We could imagine ourselves sreaming & cheering when we get our desirable result. But, things didn't turn out th way we expect. 'Dear God, why did this happen? I thght you wld bless us.' We cried, & as we walked out of th hall. Thr was only one song on my mind: I write th songs. I sanged with tears. But now. Don't you think 'Together, we rock to th same beat.' finally came true? (: " -- Karen.w " You helped the school get an award and the results isn't the one that is important. It's what you learn in the process of practicing for SYF. Friendship and learn a skill. Which was playing the guitar. ' Nee Huai and Wangda called us. Both of them said the same thing ' You all did your best and the important thing is you all enjoyed playing the both songs. ' Mr Ong made EVERYONE and I am sure its EVERYONE shed a tear. It's just so touching. THREE CHEERS & THREE CHEERS & THREE CHEERS FOR MR ONG! HIPHIP HOORAY. HIPHIP HOORAY. HIPHIP HOORAY. (: WE LOVE YOU, MR ONG! " -- Huisi " Went into the guitar room, silence again. Mdm Tan, Mrs Cheng & Mr Ong talked to us. Huisi, Joel, JongChi & i just kept crying. But we all realised somethings- That it really isnt the result that matters, it was the process. & I can really relate to this. Cause before Arts Fiesta me(& Huisi and some others) really disliked some people. But the rehersals together made us realize that they were actually quite nice people. I saw them crying, & it showed me how much they actually felt for this Family, while they gave us the feeling that they disliked guitar at first. This process & experience really made me see the actual sides of most of the people in this Guitar Ensemble, or rather, Family. & i have really made alot of friends through Guitar. I'm thankful for that & that is enough. Silver, Gold. It doesnt matter. Cause what we must understand is that in the end, it's those memories & friendships that will last. " -- Edna " Hougang secondary sch--- SILVER. We cried tgther. Mr Ong said it was the best. flawless. perfect. What more cld we ask for? He rock :D We all did our best (: conscious clear. Just, I played I write the songs. cried agn.. remembered how perfectly & flawlessly we played this song that day. Sway cld be better, but it still rock(: Can see that Mr Ong really enjoyed conducting(: 'Is the friends & skills you had learnt.' Yup! I LOVE THE GUITARISTS(: Silver is sth we can only say, what we achieved. EVERYONE IS GOLD MATERIAL(: I LOVE ALL! :D " -- Cher " 'GT005 hougang secondary school... silver' dis is the onli thing tt keeps reflecting on my mind ytd. when we out of the con. hall... most of our eyes r red... we went to the toilet to cry... i cant stant it... huisi sae she was shocked... after tt we went out.. wan er asked us to go closer... i saw nee huai's name on her phone... i turned around n cried... i felt sori for the seniors... reali sori... they put down so much hope on us... n we let them dwn... i felt reli bad..ms karen said silver is always beta den bronze or COP... the most important thing is nt the cert... is the process n the enjoyment... " -- Joanne " we played quite exceedingly nice, especially ' I write the song. ' until i want to cry lehx.. i was playing the song halfway through. BUT the song was so touching. first time felt tat way lehx. :))) thought we could get a gold. but in the end.... all of us were lyk so quiet. when the results were announced. shock indeed. until derrick start to CRY. i started to cry too.. SO SADD> DAMN SAD DE / kept crying afterwards. CRIED CRIED. more than half an hr. 1 hr bahx. cried fer very long. i guess alot of ppl will be shock cos we'' 7 JIIES MEI"" cried fer so long lehx. when waiting fer the bis to come. on bus. reached sch. inside the room. CRIED CRIED. so remorseful lorx. the attititudes towards guitar in the past. felt tat we let down mr ong. we were lyk crying n crying when we c mr ong. he;s the best conductor!!! " -- Shumin " although we disappointed him but he still encourages us tellin us we did our best today... went we board our bus, there was total silence n onli sound of ppl crying..... then chong ji n joel was playin the guitar to cheer us up.... we went bck to guitar room then mrs cheng talked to us tellin us wat is more important than the SYF results... encouraging us... mr ong's word make me feelt so touch! i cried again.... P.S : Mr ong we r so srri to disappoint u with a silver n thanx 4 all the encouragement!!!! :'( " -- Jesslyn " den we perform finish . we tot we did well , and tot we will get a gold ??? but den in the end , a sadd thinqq was we ahd gotten a sliver , haiish it was sadd lorx . when they announce , we all was jus clappinqq and everione face change alr . den we started cryyinqq . we criedd for at least an h0ur cann ?? dam sadd lahx .. expected the unexpected . " -- Cheryl " SILVER. tts wd we got.for SYF. kind of sad.wanted to break the pass years record.but failed. almost everyone cried.only 5 pple neva.it is really very sad.dunno how say.mrscheng said: the results is only a bonus.its the frenship and teamwork tt really matters.(something like tt.) i made alot of frens through guitar.n i wan to thank them.(: HS GUITARCLUB ROCKS.! we will JIAYOU for the next SYF in 2009.(: " -- Wenjie " to all guitar people: cheer up! you all did your best! we didnt let anybody down!! " -- Andrina " u all have practiced hard. and i've seen through ur constant progresses. frm the time when u all were practicing like newbs. till the NW who u all are. u all played with such passion and confidence even though i was'nt there during SYF but through the words frm mr ong, i was able to feel the vibe frm u all. all ur progress was humongous. 2 thumbs up. frm zero to sliver i belive u all played way above the standards of gold. but wads done has been done. wads over IS over. no use now. but to keep ur current skills juz as polished till the nxt SYF 2 more yrs ltr. i belive u all can do it. have faith in mr ong. but most importantly. have faith in urself. if u let juz sliver bring u all dwn. then tt is v. wrong. u all shld have faith. and carry urselves like a true professional guitarist. " -- Ngeesong " be4 we played, we received lots nnd lots of blessingg from all seniors. wat sadx iissh tt they are unabe to come. it;s was our turn hahhahas all ws realli scare but becoz mr ongg was dere, we r no longger scare. mr ong smile all way out. ii smile coz of hiim too. we play well, berri berri well. we aim to get gold, we tink we can gold, we DESERVE to get gold. but thinggs was nortt upp to our expectation. we did n0rtt manage to get goldd but a sliver.we watch the other school performing. after 20 schools,it's was time for the results. we gortt a sliver. the moment we heard tt, all faces was shown to be diisappointment, all tryin hardd to control our teaRs. but we failed to d0 s0. we all cried. it was realli sadx. we realli played well. nnd we DESERVE to get a goldd. we hadd put iin lot nnd lots of effort. but all thiis dun pay off lorx. we cried badly. mr ongg even say sorri lorx. n0rrt even hiis fault, why hhe say sorri. hhe need n0rtt need to do so mahhx. wa lao. realli hate lehhx. but wat done iissh realli done le. right hhere must thankks mr ong nnd all those seniors. THANKKS LOTS ! thankks ferr all the encouragement(:we will try our best 2 year later to win backk our goldd(:to all guitar members:we hadd done our best, need not be sadx over iit animore. no use cryin le. jjust jiiayous~it's their lose, not ours(:like wat edna said. we played together, we cried together, that's wat a family!cheeR upp guys!" -- Laoliew Joanne send this sms to MrOng: mr ong. thx for teaching us all these time. we're sorry that we didnt get what you wanted. thx for letting us hav happy times with u during guitar lessons. thx for letting me know so many new friends in guitar. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! =) He replied: I should be the one saying sorry for giving you all false hope. In my heart, I felt that the judging swung unfairly. but one thing I've achieved is that everyone of you is GOLD to me. You did me and the school proud. I couldn't have asked for more. So congrats to a task well done! We'll pick up and I thank you for your encouragement and enthusiasm! Karen. --- Yes ,i saw this . i cried . & i thank karen for posting this up that time . On the same day , Huisi posted this ... --- We miss. Hi, Im whamp. (Huisi) It has been 25 days since we had our guitar SYF on 19th april. Nevertheless, I shall blog this as it might have a great significance for our SYF 2007. Like for example, when we get our Gold in 2009, we shall look at the archives and say," Yay. We have achieved our goal we had in 2007! :D ". On 19th april, we had our long-awaited guitar SYF. We came to school, nervous but happy at the same time. We changed to our costumes and waited for the bus to fetch us to the Singapore Conference Hall where they held our SYF. We headed for the Tuning Room as it was our turn soon. We left the Tuning Room and went in to the hall. We walked in and bowed to Mr Ong. We played our both SYF songs - Sway & I write the songs. It was amazing. I really felt that everyone of us were really swaying to the rhythm of the songs. As in literally, not physically. Everyone had their heart in the song, enjoying the song, not bothering the judges who were sitting up there. We smiled at Mr Ong as he was smiling at us and we know that he really did enjoy conducting us. Both songs ended, we stood up, bowed and walked out of the hall. We exchanged conversations immediately like: 1) "We played flawlessly, right?" 2) "Both songs were great! We played perfectly!" Yah. We played flawlessly, Im sure. Many of us felt like crying as we walked outside. We didnt let our seniors down as we knew that we did our best and all our hard effort didnt go down the drain. Then after all the 20 schools had played their songs, it's time for the results. When we heard "GT005 Hougang Secondary - Silver"... We were shocked as we unexpected that we would get a Silver. We broke down. There were calls from seniors but I only remember Nee Huai called when we were waiting for the buses to come. I can only hear her saying that we did our best and we didnt let the seniors down. Cause many girls were crowding around Wan Er who was holding the phone putting on loudspeaker. Broke down AGAIN (emphasize on AGAIN). We went up the bus, the atmosphere was definitely different from that morning when we came to SCH. Sniffing sounds and no one was talking at all. When we arrived back at school, there were many students crowding our bus.. Expecting to hear from us. We took our guitars and walked briskly to the guitar room, not wanting to let the students see our red and swollen eyes. And then in the guitar room, Mrs Cheng, Mdm Tan & Mr Ong briefed us. Mr Ong's words made all of us tear. We were really touched and grateful to him. After all, he had put in a lot of effort and time into us, HS Guitar Club. And I felt that Chantel's post about SYF expressed what we felt deep down in our heart. This was what she said, So what if we had a Gold? We would only be rejoicing and be proud of our achievement. Getting a Silver has made me realised that the results are not that important. It's all about this Guitar Club. The road to SYF was more significant. It was the bonding between us, that led us to be united and closer to one another. Going through difficulties and helping one another out. We'll cry and laugh together. We spurred one another on, to practise guitar regularly. Mr Ong, he's like a father to us. He's always pleasing us, like his own children. He's so understanding whenever we had reasons not to attend guitar lessons. He's patient, he'll make sure that we got everything that he taught us. I'll just find enlightenment in his smiles. He's a one-in-a-million instructor. (: I remembered the first time Mr Ong gave out the "SWAY" scores. Most of us thought we couldn't do it, as the introduction was a challenge to the melodists that time. They had to play it fast and clear. However, with much practise & with the help of our seniors. We have overcome it! I was a chordist and I didn't know how to mute the parts when I played the verse and chorus. With Ziyang and Wangda's help, I could, and I was so glad! (: Ngeesong, a BIG thank you for teaching me how to play the Flamenco style! It was great to learn a new technioque! (: When Mr Ong gave out the scores of the second song, " I Write The Songs", we (chordists) saw that there were so so many chords that were stranger to us. Like 20 over chords! Then Kok Wee said, Mr Ong will surely change song, so difficult! We took a long time to learn the chords and memorise the whole song. It was really a big obstacle. Another challenge for the chordists was to learn the "B key". I didn't want to play that part when Mr Ong asked for our opinion. I almost gave up on the "B key" chords. With Kokwee and Ziyang's help, I did it! With all these difficulties and obstacles, we overcome it with one another's help. We needed one another. Through all theses, we have found out how important we are to one another. We have held on together, pressed on and have come this far. We're all in this together! END Yup, she is right. We're all in this together, never seperated! We had our roles and parts when we're playing both songs, like having acted out in a play. But we're doing in a form of music. Chordists, Melodists and Basists each play an important role. Imagine a guitar ensemble without each of them, it's just awful the sound is, isn't it? And remember Ignatius's sardine story forever! :D HS Guitar club is more than a CCA to us. It's like one big family together! We shall never give up and continue to reach out for our goal - Getting a Gold in SYF 2009! I know the seniors dont have a chance anymore but remember this, WE WONT LET YOU DOWN AND WE WILL GET A GOLD!  Together, we shall rock to the same beat! :D And I promise you all, the date for the guitar camp will be out soon! So stay tuned and visit this blog oftenly. We'll keep this blog lively. :D ---- These posts ... it reflected how we felt that time ,that year ... 2 years ago . the heartache we felt , pain that nobosy could describe how it was like . The highlighted sentences , will they come true this year ? or will we fall again ,from the sky to hell ??? I would like to ask EVERYONE from the guitar club , or maybe i should have asked earlier . Would you all like to go through this pain too ? Those who have alrdy been through , would you like to go through it ,again ? |
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